Me either but the point still stands. [Surprisingly, he hasn't gone red. It's been like two years and something months since he did that really regularly.] So.
Maybe they'd beat feet if you want, sorry dudes it's me time.
Opp, guess we are. [Actually, it's all some big disaction and he looks up at the ceiling.]
Just remember they did things to you to make you act like that. You fought until they had their way. All you can do here. Not blaming you for a damn thing.
It gets harder to convince yourself that. [Dave admits. It's really hard. You think you've gotten better at dealing with the stuff here, but in reality it gets harder and you know you're slipping.
And he doesn't know how to stop himself from continue that slip.] Who's to say I won't end up doing it again either.
[It's comforting, but it's also not all that comforting.]
Be nice if it was as easy as that. Who'd think that this god tier bullshit could be such a shitty thing in this place. [He can't completely hate it, but there have been moments where it's caused him more trouble than it's worth.]
Doesn't change what I'll do. I'll stop you. Somehow. [Pain in the ass Godtier might be, he knows how to use time even when limited. He knows it so well he can out maneuver himself if needed.]
I don't really want it to have to be a thing. [Even if he knows that it'll happen again. He just doesn't want to have to put this on Dave's shoulders. Or anyone's for that matter.]
I don't either. [It's the truth. He'd rather not have to lift a sword and point it at anyone he knows. But the reality is...]
But I can't sit back and let things like this continue. [It's on his shoulders whether they like it or not. He hates how this whole place feels like the session hyped up on octane fuel.] Thought I could power through it.
But.
I can't.
[This is unfortunately a glimmer of how worn down he already is from home and the darker moods he'll be in to come.]
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[Action] Too late, just did.
Maybe they'd beat feet if you want, sorry dudes it's me time.
[Action] Rude
[He will fling himself out one of the open floors before he talks about what he does in the dark and by himself. Not that...he actually does.]
[Action] Rudest
Just remember they did things to you to make you act like that. You fought until they had their way. All you can do here. Not blaming you for a damn thing.
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And he doesn't know how to stop himself from continue that slip.] Who's to say I won't end up doing it again either.
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[His voice says he'd do it. It would hurt him, but he'd do it. No matter the cost to himself.]
[Action]
Be nice if it was as easy as that. Who'd think that this god tier bullshit could be such a shitty thing in this place. [He can't completely hate it, but there have been moments where it's caused him more trouble than it's worth.]
[Action]
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But I can't sit back and let things like this continue. [It's on his shoulders whether they like it or not. He hates how this whole place feels like the session hyped up on octane fuel.] Thought I could power through it.
But.
I can't.
[This is unfortunately a glimmer of how worn down he already is from home and the darker moods he'll be in to come.]
[Action]
What we usually thought would work doesn't exactly work here. It's kind of shitty though. I'm still not sure how to get through this.
That isn't just a will of steel and a hell of a lot of pain to get through the process.