I don't either. [It's the truth. He'd rather not have to lift a sword and point it at anyone he knows. But the reality is...]

But I can't sit back and let things like this continue. [It's on his shoulders whether they like it or not. He hates how this whole place feels like the session hyped up on octane fuel.] Thought I could power through it.

But.

I can't.

[This is unfortunately a glimmer of how worn down he already is from home and the darker moods he'll be in to come.]